College really sucks right now. I've never felt more lonely and every time things look up they go right back in the dumpster. My only close "friend" at this institution is my room mate so we see each other all the time. We are really different in many ways and I find myself resenting her the more we spend time together. She's just not a very caring person and I really care about people I'm friends with. It makes me happy to see other happy but she just seems to want to be better than me in any way. I just can't take having the only person in this big place thats really supposed to be there never really be there is too much for me to handle.
Other than that my diet is shit.
Hope you all are doing better than me xx
I'm unsure of a lot in life except that I want to be perfect.
I'm stupid. I eat too much. I give up too easily. I'm lazy. I'm fake. But, what else is new? I thought i made it through this but no. It will never go away I can't fight it. It's just who I am.
I moved into my dorm yesterday! I haven't updated much because i have been busy getting stuff and preparing for college. I think I will do the ABC after I can complete a successful fast for at least a day. Orientation week is making it impossible.
Here are my old progress pics before (135 or something) and after (118)
oh and sorry my mirror is so dirty :/
heres some thinspo:
and this is me (got a new mac!!!):
Hope you all are doing well :)
I am so ready for this. I'm not sure how long I will go this time. Last time I went until I think Day 5 and I had lost about 4 pounds, probably mostly water weight at that time but still.
Day 1: 500 (or less)
1 orange 50
hope you all are doing well xx